Azhar & Sharina

Dear Me, Part Deux

Okay, let us continue with this amazing story of mine. So we are all influenced by our past and surroundings to the extend it merges into our personality and character. Like I have said before, all the drillings that was done by my mom has put me in a situation where I expected women to at least the basics of cooking and maintenance of the household. This is the influence of the olden days ladies where they train their daughters to do all these which no longer apply in the modern days. I find it hard to accept at first, but I am slowly making a change. I totally understand what Sharina’s mom actions are and I totally get where she is coming from. I mean my mom is like her, but I could feel my mom’s pure and genuine love for me, and she did all the tortures not for her own good, but for us children. She has been sweet and loving to us, nothing will ever break my connection with my mom.

Being old fashion also means no touching of other girls even of girlfriends, no late night outings, no smoking, no vanity, no make ups, no yak yak yak and many more nos which I cannot think of right now. When I grew up, I broke that system, because I felt I needed to expand and being old fashion gets you nowhere. I am not talking about breaking my religious faith, but rather, old fashion mindedness.

So, being in such traditional surroundings put me to where I was few years ago. Very quiet, did not talk much, did not dare flirt with girls or even talk to them so on and so forth. So I was only pro at talking with aunties and boys and uncles.

So, the influence that our parents have for us is very important. My mom portrayed the image of someone who is disciplined and persistent, while dad was hardworking and an image of everlasting responsible workaholic. And that is where I get my traits from. These are only the positives, and talking about inheriting the negatives is something very painful to talk about. From their influences, I cannot stand lazy people, people who give excuses, and irresponsible people who take things for granted. I find them very annoying, sorry about that.

From my dad’s genes, I got his rough personality. My dad is quite rough, but he doesn’t mean it that way. Which at times I do not as well, but I ended up hurting others. I am still honing my skills to reduce my roughness, especially when I get agitated. I will change for the better. My mom is so gentle, so that means I get this attributes from dad. To me, I believe that no matter what you are, what genes you have, whatever influences you have, if you DECIDE to change, you CAN change. It is a matter of decision. 

To be Continued